long time no c...

its been a very very very long period didnt log in here d...almost forget the password...took sumtimes to log in jz now...haiz...

during this few months, i feel so depress...dono wat happen...
i lost my motivation to studies,to sports, and oni stay in the room playing games, sleep, wasting time, bla bla bla........
even lazy wanna write sumthing here...(act is dono wat to write...try b4 open a new post but dono wat to write....jz looking at the screen and do nothing for an hour..then log offf~~)...
now get back to the blog...saw elsa and fernfern leave the msg oni noe i ord waste alot of times in doing nothing....
jan~~~~feb~~~~march~~~~
feel so down...sad....moody....tired.....
who cn let me noe wat happen to me??!?
who cn let me noe wats goin on with me??!?
who cn let me noe y is my life this few months full of boringness??!?
pls let me noe....if u can...don hesitate...i jz wan sumone who say sumthing to me....
even if its a critic....i willing to accept...jz wanna noe who m i!!
this few days...i trying so hard to find out wat actually is myself....
i dono....this make me feel more burdened....i call my mom jz now...
no reason...
jz call and ask sumthing really stupid(at least for me i think is stupid) like how are u there?how is dad goin on?
these are all the thing that nvr happen in my life b4...
is tat wat we call home sick?!?
but i jz don feel like goin bc..
i refuse to let my beloved parents noe im so depress here..
i jz don wan..don wan..........
im so helpless now.....pls help me!!